Slept for only 1 and a half hour last night before heading to Stevens Rd for attachment. Thought for once I could be early but nooooo. I had to take the fcking wrong bus and ended up at Woodlands with half an hour left to reach my attachment centre. Awesome, much? But nevertheless, I feel happy today. Its so weird. Maybe I feel such an immense amount of satisfaction with myself that I managed to clear a great deal of attachment work during the weekends(:

& YES, after attachment, I managed to get my black hoodie from Peninsula, returned 3books and borrowed another 3 from the National Library and reached home by 815pm{: I'm awesome like that. I'm so mother fcking happy with my buy, ONLY 15DOLLAHS ZOKAY, SO FECKING AWESOME SWEET :D NIAHAHA! Can sell my grey Hollister one at the Flea next Saturday yeh babey!(: Shit, what did I eat just now, I feel like puking right now. Gahhh. OKOK, I gotta go back to do MORE attachment stuffz. BAIZ BAIZ! :D

Its the 13th, yet again. Strangely, I don't feel anything. I feel just like a robot now. Doing things that I'm programmed to do. I can't feel anything anymore. Sighhh. Tomorrow, attachment again. Arghhh. ): Might be heading to Peninsula to find my black hoodie though, at least something worth looking forward to. Shopping alone, finding solace in solitary moments. Hmmm. 3 more weeks, come on Quek you can do it :D

Anyways, here's to Benson Ng, the brother from another mother(: Takecare in army yeh? We'll party like rockstars after your 2 weeks and after my bloody irritating ttm attachment! It'll be over soon!((:

So long world, hope I survive tomorrow. But then, it starts all over the day after tomorrow. Oh God, FML.

Gahhh, bored lonely yet busy busy busy at home. Busy ttm thanks to all the stupid attachment preparations. Bored cause I've been doing that the whole day, and lonely cause... I skipped training camp for this. WTF. FML. My teammies are having teamtalk now. I'm sad. ):

I really really wish attachment could end now. Seriously. It sapping my energy, my life slowly but surely. So many things I want to do but I can't. Because attachment now has to be top priority. FML, why did I choose this course in the first place. FCKKKKKK.

I miss having fun. I miss being happy, from the heart. I miss being, me. Hello? Earth to Jolene Quek. Please come back.

Oh gosh. Today was madness. I refuse to talk about anything regarding my attachment. I can just say, 'good luck & all the best' to myself and hope(pray) for a miracle. Today has got to be one of the most tiresome and depressing day for me. Idk why I just felt so listless and grouchy and emo today. Felt like someone died or something. Idk. Maybe its just raging hormones. All I know is that someone pushed it too far out and I kind of snapped on the bus. Just sat there, and the person next to me was kind enough to hand over a tissue. Gahhh.



Lets just hope things will start looking up from now on.

HAHAHAHAHAA! Just fo laughs babes and dudes(:

翻著我們的照片 想念若隱若現

去年的冬天 我們笑得很甜

看著妳哭泣的臉, 對著我說再見

來不及聽見　妳已走得很遠

也許妳已經放棄我　也許已經很難回頭

我知道是自己錯過　請再給我一個理由說妳不愛我

就算是我不懂　能不能原諒我

請不要把分手當作妳的請求

我知道堅持要走 是妳受傷的藉口

請妳回頭　我會陪妳一直走到最後

就算沒有結果　我也能夠承受

我知道妳的痛　是我給的承諾

妳說給過我縱容　沉默是因為包容

如果要走　請妳記得我

Stuck in my head for the whole night.

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只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天

睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的

我想你已表现的非常明白

我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信

牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经

希望他是真的比我还要爱你

我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪

我根本不想分开

为什么还要我用微笑来带过

我没有这种天份

包容你也接受他

不用担心的太多

我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开

我也会慢慢走开

为什么我连分开都迁就着你

我真的没有天份

安静的没这么快

我会学着放弃你

是因为我太爱你

Life is so fcked, isn't it. Makes you only appreciate things in the last minute. Only when something's gone, do we learn to cherish it. Everyone used to mock Micheal Jackson, calling him WackoJacko and how his nose would fall off anytime but now, people are crying and calling him King of Pop. Wouldn't it be better if they just realise that sooner? Whats the use of all this now? He's dead. He can't fcking hear you. Why can't people just wake the fuck up before its too late? I just don't get it.

Life throws us off in all directions. Sometimes things we thought were gonna last don't last, things we thought wouldn't, in turn would. So someone just tell me what the fck is Life? God must think this is damn fun, playing us like Sims 3 or something. Fck it, send the Grim Reaper after me already.