And so if you don't already know, today was KNNB FUCKED UP! I went to work super duper early, like 45 minutes early and my colleague who was supposed to already be there only came at the time I was supposed to start work, 2pm. And mind you I was wearing the NewLook dress with 3quartersleeves and today's weather is as per usual FUCKING HOT. AND HAJI LANE IS NOT A SHOPPING CENTRE, IT DOESN'T COME WITH AIRCON. So after waiting so long, the girl finally came, and OMG, she said, "I FORGOT TO BRING MY KEYS." My face went from, 'ohgoshyayfinallygotaircon' to 'WHAT.THE.FUCK.YOU.MUST.BE.FUCKING.KIDDING.ME.' And so I had to loiter around Bugis Junction while I waited for her to go back to Yishun and get her keys. Tmd. And so we rushed to open the store and all and when 8pm came to close the store, we calculated the overall sales AND FUCKING GUESS WHAT?! APPARENTLY THERE'S MISSING MONEY OF 39.90. And most of the cash transactions was done by her. I only did the cash transactions for drinks ok don't come and tell me I sell those drinks until can shortchange till 39.90 lor fuck. WARAO. So we had to pay the amount that was shortchanged. TOTALLY WTF OKKKK. >: Eeeyer, so annoying.

Why do people make Love such a complicated thing. >: Like means like, why make yourself so miserable over something thats supposed to be beautiful and joyful? >: Why do we always fall in like/love with someone who doesn't like/love us and vice versa? Let Quek BIG SIGH together with you guys/girls. SIGHHHHHHHHHH. You see, if two people like each other and they fear that getting together would only hurt their friendship if the relationship should end badly, don't you think its a wasted assumption if through this precaution you guys are drifting apart? Am I making sense? Since no matter what this friendship isn't going to go any better, why not just give it a shot? If you never give it a shot, you never know how that relationship will blossom, yes? -sighs. In any ways, I wish all human beings all the best in their attempts to chase the girl/guy of their dreams.

I, Jolene Quek Wei Wei, shall now think of when AND WHERE I should go do my manicure, pedicure, facial and YEAH WHATEVER THAT MAKES ME HAPPY. HAHAHAHA! :D

I have started working at Haji. First two days working there were pretty fine. Store just opposite Collage. Everyday just keep seeing people smoking outside only. >: Sian. Oh wells, hope time passes faster so that I'll get more used to the job. But there are lots of perks about working there.

Firstly, when I'm there I feel uber inspired to dress up. Like I won't feel like, "sian Singaporeans all like dress so simply, I look so out of place". But the people there, all one of a kinds. The weather nowadays can be tmd hot but they still can wear until damn nice. And its not those just one Topshop or whatever. But more like, local designers you know those very effortlessly put together look? Like whoa. I'm gonna people watch more often when I work :D

Secondly, for the 2 days I've been there, I already encounter people coming in to loan items for fashion shoots and fashion spreads in magazines. LIKE WTF HOW COOL'S THAT? THATS LIKE MY DREAM JOB LA HELLO? Fashion Stylist siaaaaaa. Le sigh.

Thirdly, I get to know a lot more about the fashion industry in Singapore. I always had this mentality that the fashion industry is damn small in Singapore. But its not THAT small actually. Its just that local magazines tend to feature the same few designers and labels THATS WHY it SEEMS small. So cool la. And as they say 'beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder'. Soooo, different people got different perception on fashion so ohwells. Learning new terms about fashion and the management and what goes on behind the scenes of new stocks and producing LIKE OMG I'M JUST DUMPING WORDS EVERYWHERE BUT YOU GET WHAT I MEAN RIGHT? ;D

Thats why I always felt like if I ever want to do anything related to the fashion industry, I got to start somewhere. So thankful for this job. (: Gonna find out more and learn more and see how it goes. :D

Oh yes, if you guys wanna come visit me I'm at Mono + :D But I can't chill chill talk talk smoke smoke with you guys for too long cause I good employee. :D HAHAHA.

Hohoho, anyways tmr, eh wait, technically speaking its TONIGHT, will be awesome awesome with my kakis! :D BUTTER BUTTER BUTTER! And before that, its tanning with BFF again. AWESOME NOTS? <3

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OMFG HOW CAN I FORGET ONE MORE PERK!

CUTE GUYS LIKE WTF SAY YEAH! :D heeheehee ^^v

Having 'The Only Exception' by Paramore on repeat. Its making me feel so fucking emotional right now. So fucking insecure, a million thoughts buzzing around in my head, fucking me upside down.

I wish I..

• had skinnier arms
• had skinnier legs
• was taller
• didn't have fucked up complexion
• wasn't so fucking tanned to the extent it looks black
• had slimmer fingers
• had slimmer feet
• had bigger eyes
• nicer hair
• had abs
• was rich
• could do whatever I want without anyone judging me, stopping me
• could tell you everything but I don't dare to and its fucking killing me

-closeeyesanddeepbreathes.

"Well, maybe I know somewhere

Deep in my soul

That love never lasts

And we've got to find other ways

To make it alone

Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable distance

And up till now, I had sworn to myself

That I'm content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

I've got a tight grip on reality

But I can't let go of what's in front of me here

I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up

Leave me some kind of proof its not a dream

Well, you are the only exception.

And I'm on my way to believing. "

Makes me just wanna scream and cry at the same time.

To all my friends,

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance,
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)

Dance like no one's watching. (:

Shitttt, really still got nothing much to update! ): Sheesh, my life that boring nots? Today was supposed to be all fun and stuff with AmandaMAK, FleaFlyFloFun and PercyJackson BUT SHE LAST MINUTE CANNOT MAKE ITTT! MAJOR SADZXZX OHGHEYS): LOGAN LERMAN MUST WAIT FOR MEEE! :B

Meet my B&J friend, AmandaWANG :D Teehee, all Amandas I know such nice people oneezxzx! :D The whole duration of work yesterday was peppered with gossips and laughters. :D Awesome! Plus MattBFF finally came to look for me during work BUT, sadly he lost his wallet in the whole process. Well I hope everything's fine now for him BUT THEN AGAIN SOMEONE GOT T ALREADY HORZXZX? :D GOT T OTHER STUFF ARE PEANUTS ALREADY :D Hehheh. So now how? My next week is INCREDIBLY EMPTY AND BORING AND GAHHH. Anyone with any bright ideas? ):

Just talked to Matthew BFF, I feel so damn happy for him :D All's well ends well. Got me thinking about myself too. Sometimes I think I am like, really weird. I like people, who are not that into me. Yet I am oblivious to people who like me. Or so I think they do. But you get my drift, no? And what makes me a tad weirder than most people is that, when I find out the person that I like, likes me too? I back away. For what reasons, I HAVE NO FCKING IDEA. Its not that I am playing some stupid mind games. I guess, maybe I am just afraid? I don't know. Tell me who I am, cause I myself don't know who I am. I don't know what I want. I don't know, I don't know, I don't know. Maybe I have no balls, maybe I am a retard, maybe maybe maybes. I hate and know that its mean to cut off contact with someone whom I THINK likes me, but thats just what I do. Time and time again. ): -sigh. There's something wrong with me, ain't it?

Ahhhh. Now come to think of it, I sure am some weirdo. Got things to 烦, will 烦 about those things. Nothing to 烦, I will 烦 about why is it I so sad life, to the extent that I have nothing to 烦 about.

Tell me, not called 自找麻烦, call what? ):

Life's good, life's good, sorry I haven't been updating in awhile. From the VERY occasional party to working to hanging out with friends, I'm good now that school's unofficially over for me(: Happy happy! And I'm all ready for CNY! OMG, can't wait to wear me new clothes! HAHAHA! :D Seriously, I got nothing much to update(:

Oh yes, know what's a douche? YOU're a douche. Fcktard.

ANYWAYS, I've decided to skip a year. Am not gonna apply for Uni this year. Gonna take a break from school, seeing that I've found a job anyways. See where it takes me! WISH ME LUCK! <3