I fucking don't deserve this shit. I fucking don't deserve to have to OT, because I spent the whole fucking day clearing what you needed to do. YOUR JOB. And even when I tried to be mature, and clear the air, and make you understand. You don't fucking listen. All you know, all you can gather, is I'm being mean. I'm the fucker who voiced out. Who tell you in your face that ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. Fuck you ok? This is not my shit to clear. FUCK YOU.

Sorry for the laoyapok quality picture. People not rich like boyfriend can buy lumix lx5! LOL. But ya. 7 days in BKK with him. So used to life with him I feel weird now! Every night we're out to "SirBumPut" and Khaosan. Clubbing at Slim and Route66, just two of us. Supper at the roadside, shopping at Platinum, movie at Siam Paragon, my boyfriend takes such good care of me I don't know what to do if one day he don't want meeee /whines.

HAHAHA. :D Love my boyfriend muamuamua! This May/July will be with him plus BFF and her plusone! CAN'T FUCKING WAIT! :D

What a happening year ^^ full time job fell in love Ninjas <3

I welcome you with open arms. :D So much to be accomplished this year!

A very very vague NY Resolution list: -

1.

Have an awesome year with J. Hope whatever we have planned goes off with a BANG! :D



2.

I don't think I need to mention this because I know it'd be good but here goes, AWESOMER YEAR WITH THE BFF. ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING IS FUN AND AWESOME WITH HER :D:D:D Wonder what I did last time that I got such a gem of a friend in her. So so so thankful <3<3<3





3.

so I'm wishing for loads of cash....

to fulfill my polaroid wall :D ...

to get loads of branded bags and purses and shoes and clothes... O.O

to party like a rockstar \m/ .....

...actually I just wanna be happy :D

But I won't mind a little of those mentioned! :D HAHAHAHAHA!

WISHING A GOOD 2011 TO ALL YOU OUT THERE~~~ MUAH! :D

Everything changes once there is a status. I know in the past, all I wanted from him was give me the recognition I deserved. But just as he asked me after so long, I got a little apprehensive. I didn't want things to be different just because we were together officially. I thought he'd be something different. But everything still seems the same as others. Now I just end up feeling disappointed again. sigh. At first, it was still alright. I was so happy everything felt so surreal. But eventually things still became like stagnant. Screw expectations seriously. Yet its so hard for me to not have any. You understand what I mean?

And besides, I think I really could use a change of job. I'm sick of working here. :( My colleagues are great! But the workload is horrible! I don't like it one bit! :( Plus the festive mood is really ruined cause of work. I wanna go on holiday! :(

"Was on FB and I saw this note by Lin, as in she found it somewhere on deviantart which I thought was, well WHOA. Click Please go and read it. After which, this is what I think.


Do you realize this is something that is constantly happening? ): Why? During the start of the relationship, they can promise anything. Promises to give, promises to accept, promises to always be there. And we, always so stupid and naive. Always believing. And it always turns out the same. We are always left right at the same spot, looking back and wondering just what happened. The same person, but just not so similar to the one from the past anymore. And you would give anything to have it back, you know its highly not possible, but you still hope something perhaps a miracle could happen and things would go back to how they used to be. But most of the time, miracles just don't happen. Why? Why make promises you can't keep? And after breaking those promises, you go on to others and make the same promises, what's the use? You're still going to be breaking them in the end. Sigh. Now you know why I'm so cynical and adamant that that concept of Love just don't tally with reality. Because it just, doesn't. And we have all these living proof around us to constantly remind us. Don't fall back into that shithole, Quek. Don't."


Reading back, maybe they didn't change. Maybe they were the ones who were constant. Maybe I was the one who changed. Oh foolish me.

Wahhh madchio.com. Made a note, SF Varina Flats I will come to you when I have lots of money. Booya 420 USD, madex.com too. :(



Ohmygosh, I've become such a brand whore. :( Now Agnes b, Longchamp and Kate Spade is not enough! :( I'm craving some Chanel Gucci Prada and Salvatore Ferragamo! And not forgetting my Balenciaga. /drools.

Pretty PRETTY OMFG PRETTY BAGS! :D

I miss the past so much I think I can cry. But, things don't just go back to where they were just because I want them to.

Don't get me wrong. I'm happy with where my life is now. I'm happy with Jeremy. He makes me happy. He's sweet. He's everything and anything I could ask for. :) My best friend is awesome too. Despite everything thats happened, we still have each other. <3

But I just don't know. I miss being carefree as a student. Working does have its pros, in a way that my spending power has increased and all. But life's not all about money. And.. I really don't know what it is, but something's missing. And I wanna know what. :(