Felt like I was the worst girlfr ever yesterday. I promised J that I won't drink so much, that I'd takecare of myself. But I ended up at his doorstep, stumbling into his arms at 2am. I asked him,"baby are you mad?" He said he was a little.

I disappoint him time and time again. ): He knows how to takecare of himself when he's out. Why I can't do the same? ):

But it felt so good. Cuddling in the morning rain. Pecks and kisses. <3

I'm scared and know better than to think of the future, but I hope its him. The boy who changed for me. My sweetie <3

Sometimes Life just makes you wanna...

... and stuff. Le sigh. Lets just hope Life doesn't fuck me up so bad. Is it so hard for things to go according to plan? Someone, tell me everything's gonna be alright.

Miss my long fringe, miss my long hair. HAIR, Y U NO GROW FASTER? And these past few days my neck is aching like MAD! Like I haven't been sleeping properly or Carpal Tunnel Syndrome for necks or something. ARGH!

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... I can't promise you forever, but I love you, always. <3

I fucking don't deserve this shit. I fucking don't deserve to have to OT, because I spent the whole fucking day clearing what you needed to do. YOUR JOB. And even when I tried to be mature, and clear the air, and make you understand. You don't fucking listen. All you know, all you can gather, is I'm being mean. I'm the fucker who voiced out. Who tell you in your face that ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. Fuck you ok? This is not my shit to clear. FUCK YOU.

Sorry for the laoyapok quality picture. People not rich like boyfriend can buy lumix lx5! LOL. But ya. 7 days in BKK with him. So used to life with him I feel weird now! Every night we're out to "SirBumPut" and Khaosan. Clubbing at Slim and Route66, just two of us. Supper at the roadside, shopping at Platinum, movie at Siam Paragon, my boyfriend takes such good care of me I don't know what to do if one day he don't want meeee /whines.

HAHAHA. :D Love my boyfriend muamuamua! This May/July will be with him plus BFF and her plusone! CAN'T FUCKING WAIT! :D

What a happening year ^^ full time job fell in love Ninjas <3

I welcome you with open arms. :D So much to be accomplished this year!

A very very vague NY Resolution list: -

1.

Have an awesome year with J. Hope whatever we have planned goes off with a BANG! :D



2.

I don't think I need to mention this because I know it'd be good but here goes, AWESOMER YEAR WITH THE BFF. ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING IS FUN AND AWESOME WITH HER :D:D:D Wonder what I did last time that I got such a gem of a friend in her. So so so thankful <3<3<3





3.

so I'm wishing for loads of cash....

to fulfill my polaroid wall :D ...

to get loads of branded bags and purses and shoes and clothes... O.O

to party like a rockstar \m/ .....

...actually I just wanna be happy :D

But I won't mind a little of those mentioned! :D HAHAHAHAHA!

WISHING A GOOD 2011 TO ALL YOU OUT THERE~~~ MUAH! :D

Everything changes once there is a status. I know in the past, all I wanted from him was give me the recognition I deserved. But just as he asked me after so long, I got a little apprehensive. I didn't want things to be different just because we were together officially. I thought he'd be something different. But everything still seems the same as others. Now I just end up feeling disappointed again. sigh. At first, it was still alright. I was so happy everything felt so surreal. But eventually things still became like stagnant. Screw expectations seriously. Yet its so hard for me to not have any. You understand what I mean?

And besides, I think I really could use a change of job. I'm sick of working here. :( My colleagues are great! But the workload is horrible! I don't like it one bit! :( Plus the festive mood is really ruined cause of work. I wanna go on holiday! :(