All messed up. Sometimes, I really have absolutely no idea what I want. I have no idea what you want either. Everything just spiralling out of control. But I won't let it. I know I won't. After all I've been through, I'm not going to make the same mistakes twice. Its so hard to make you see. So damn hard.

I try to stay up, he's my wake up call

Either way I'm feeling, try to fake it up

losing control and I'm waiting for

The next time you hold me close and tell me I'm beautiful

Just let me go,

I can't let go

I know I'm outta my mind, cause I know that

(he ain't right)

LOL, seriously I would tell you 'You can totally do better than that' but I can't be bothered to. Your choice dude, but OMFG what an insult to my existance, sheesh. Its like, equivalent to the comparison of always eating wagyu(is that how you spell it?) beef and swtiching to like what, beef from China, yknow something alike but no quality control? LOL I know I'm mean, but hey, how long have you known me, 1 day? Welcome back to reality, open your pretty peepers, The world ain't fair. I'mma bitch, too fcking bad for you.

Anyways, went out with Fanghui today again. The whole Devlin team likka can die already. Everyone always not free, too sianz to go out. Where's the love yo?): GSS is awesome, bought 2 tops already and I'm sure there's more to come. Wanted to get my e63 today but WTF, have to wait 1 hour likka siao me&fang both wanna just drop dead): So effing tired.): Soooo tomorrow I'm going down to Bugis to get it!((: HOORAY FOR QWERTY KEYPAD PHONES!(: So GossipGirl ala Jenny Humphrey(:

Alrighty now, I'm damn shagged. Goodnight, I'm gonna sleep now.

OMFUG I CANT FCKING BELIEVE I LOST MY RINGGGGG!): MY RIBBON BOW RING OMGOMGOMGOMG! I KNOW I SOUND LIKKA BIMBO BUT ITS MY FAVOURITE RING OMGOMGOMG!))): IM SO DEPRESSED NOW OMG JUST KILL ME NOW I'LL NEVER EVER STEP OUT IN A FULL OUTFIT I'LL NEVER FIND A RING NICER THAN THAT FCK IT FUCKKKKKKK.

On a side note, I got a super duper awesome top from CottonOn today(: OMG so happy its was so nice & the price, FCKING STEAL MAN. Can't wait to wear it out.(: LQTM, seems like I have the case of fashion bipolar. HOHOHO! Meishan asked me to go Attica with her tomorrow.Some 5th Anniversary shit. Hmmm, IF BIGASS IF, my mummy allows but thats like a BIGFAT NO. ): -pouts. Teh Yushan are we supposed to Timbre tomorrow? Never confirm one sia you!

Okok, I'm sucha no-lifer. Sighhh. Needa. Club. Real. Badly. I don't want attachment to start!!):

Backity FINALLY(: So darn happy to be home!(: Yesterday was fun fun FUN! The most cost effective clubbing session EVER Thanks to someone whom shalt not be named cause I simply am told not to. HAHAA!(: We totally fully utilized the time and $$ cause we went to DBL O for drinks before going back to Phuture. Thank God the door bitch let me in HOHOHO!(: Though I can't believe I got fcking high on housepours during the cai quan or whatever game that was. Music at Phuture somehow only got better towards the end!((: But like not everyone enjoyed leh someone like totally just stone next to the walls one. TSK!\: Okok better see and try my luck for e learning now, 0_0 BYEEEEE!

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Eeeeyer, anyone free tomorrow??? I have nothing to do tomorrow, jio me out play l4d or watch movies lehh...): Text text me cause Imma sleep now): Goodnight world.

The previous story has long ended, and a new one has begun. But yet, its plagued with the exact same problems. I need to inject my heart with adamantium so that nothing can break it. Nothing.

Today, was... tiring. Mentally and physically. All those reading of articles totally exhausted my poor brain): Then training, where my shoulder totally cracked like a chicken wing when I chased for first ball. Likka sian please\:

Tomorrow will be better, at least it'll be fun!(: First, I'd better start churning out my project stuffz before SmellyMelly kill me HAHAHAHHA!

PS: I just realised I forgot to add in one more 'random'.

• Sometimes I'm so afraid of people hurting me that I won't look into your eyes when I talk to you. Cause I'm scared that my eyes will tell you everything about me. Absolutely everything.

Today was fun(: Almost the whole day spent with SiewShuHui my BFF(: Quality time yo! Window shopped, trimmed my fringe, ATE SHITLOADS, & martini-ed with her, Yushan, Jane & Cara! Rawr we need to save loads of money please SHUHUI!): -pouts. $$fallfromskyplease.

Tomorrow will be project then poolslot, Wednesday will be project & clubbing(: Yes, Fanghui I damn scared to tell you): I have to do project on Wednesday at National Library)): Please don't angry, yknow I'd go for training if I could!)): Sorry Fanghui, givesyoubigkiss(: HAHAHAHA!

OKOK I'm damn sleepy today I don't know why, byebye!

OMFG, I'm so incredibly bored at home.): Supposed to be out today with the brother for some zombie action but he just went out to get lunch & i speculate to meet his gf as well so yes I'm stuck at home. Fcking awesome yo. Ok its not that I'm bored in the 'there's-nothing-to-do' way because I have loads to do, like start watching the video that I need to watch to do some shit for elearning on monday tuesday wednesday thursday and also to start on those rubbish I need to start on for attachment which is going to commence in like 2 fcking weeks, but more in the sense of 'I'm-so-bored-but-I-don't-wanna-do-constructive-stuffs-like-aka-my-project-is-there-something-else-I-can-do' boredom. Yknow. Ok lemme catch my breath cause that line was quite a mouthful.

Ok.

So because yours truly is sucha lazy bumbum, I'm going to do something very constructive like telling you some uber random stuffs about me(:

• I'm a closet pink fan. Seriously. Cause somehow when I get stuff, I always get pink ones over the blues. Who likes blue anyways? Pink FTW yo.
• I wanna change my phone. Like I could really use an iPhone. Yknow, all those whatchamacallit gadgets. Awesome shitzz. Maybe a motorola V9 but Iheard moto is dying so):
• I really need to pack my room, its not very very messy I mean compare it to the usual teen's bedroom I'd say mine is like WHOA so fcking tidy and clean BUT NO I inherited my mummy's cleantidyfreaky genes and sad to say, I need to pack it! GOD! I swear I saw something move among all those bags!\:
• I really gotta stop clubbing. Cause clubbing always leaves a gaping hole in my pocket. Ok technically speaking, it doesn't help my depleting bank account. Cause unlike people who spend tons on drinks and stuff, most of my money is spent on clothes. Like what I wanna wear for the clubbing session. I know right? Like what a fcking bimbo, cause I don't believe in repeat attire but wtf this time I did not buy an entirely new outfit just for clubbing YAY 3CHEERS WOOO!(:
• I hate the taste of alcohol. Likka weird please cause everytime I club I'm sure to drink stuff like flaming lamboghinis and shots, but I only drink them cause I like to get high(: But uhuh, no druggies for me yo. Some kind souls please intro me something that gets me high fast, but doesn't taste like icky alcohol. Pfft.
• I have a love-hate affair with my hair. Sometimes I'm all, 'OMG I think my hair looks better than average people's' sometimes I'm all, "FCK IT! THIS HAIR IS DRIVING ME FCKING NUTS." Period.
• I'm a closet geek too. I mean, StarTrek, Transformers, Wolverine, Terminator. Ohmygahh! -insertsbespectacledemoticon.
• I used to loveeee reading up till I was out of secondary life. Like novels kinda stuffs. DanBrown's, SandraBrown's, SidneySheldon's, MichealAsher's, etc. Good shit. Actually I still like reading but I usually can't be bothered to read stuff other than the IT Girl series or The A List series. Like wth.
• When I fall in love, I fall hopelessly and fcking deeply. Head over heels, heels over head. Which is really horrible, cause most of the time, I get stuck. & Idk why I just told you that. WTH.

OK Thats all for now. Bye.