Having 'The Only Exception' by Paramore on repeat. Its making me feel so fucking emotional right now. So fucking insecure, a million thoughts buzzing around in my head, fucking me upside down.

I wish I..

• had skinnier arms
• had skinnier legs
• was taller
• didn't have fucked up complexion
• wasn't so fucking tanned to the extent it looks black
• had slimmer fingers
• had slimmer feet
• had bigger eyes
• nicer hair
• had abs
• was rich
• could do whatever I want without anyone judging me, stopping me
• could tell you everything but I don't dare to and its fucking killing me

-closeeyesanddeepbreathes.

"Well, maybe I know somewhere

Deep in my soul

That love never lasts

And we've got to find other ways

To make it alone

Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable distance

And up till now, I had sworn to myself

That I'm content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

I've got a tight grip on reality

But I can't let go of what's in front of me here

I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up

Leave me some kind of proof its not a dream

Well, you are the only exception.

And I'm on my way to believing. "

Makes me just wanna scream and cry at the same time.