I miss the past so much I think I can cry. But, things don't just go back to where they were just because I want them to.

Don't get me wrong. I'm happy with where my life is now. I'm happy with Jeremy. He makes me happy. He's sweet. He's everything and anything I could ask for. :) My best friend is awesome too. Despite everything thats happened, we still have each other. <3

But I just don't know. I miss being carefree as a student. Working does have its pros, in a way that my spending power has increased and all. But life's not all about money. And.. I really don't know what it is, but something's missing. And I wanna know what. :(

"Most of the time, its just too difficult, or too expensive, or too scary. Its only once you've stopped that you realise how hard it is to start again. So you force yourself not to want it. But its always there. And until you finish it, it'll always be..." - HIMYM, S06E03.



I still don't know what exactly 'we' are, but I know for sure now that what 'we' have, is real. (: Its gonna be an awesome journey. <3

Besides that, I think my life has reached stagnancy. Is that even a word? Like every single day, routine work. Crazy amount of workload. But super nice colleagues who dote on me :D But wahhhh, I totally don't envision myself slogging my whole life away there. :( I want something new, something refreshing, something more to what I like! But life's never fair isn't it? You can't have everything you like. Booooooo.

Sorry Alvin I blogged very little, its 2:07am and this is a shoutout to youuu! :D Brain barely functioning already.

And with that GOODNIGHT/MORNING WORLD!

Fashion: My 2 cents

credits: http://www.thesartorialist.blogspot.com/

Took a day off work today because I was just too tired from all the late nights doing nothing constructive. And besides, I brought work home so I thought 'why not just stay home and do them?'

Before I start, I must bring up the events of last Saturday. Was at Far East with the boy. Just got my pay, and recently I just couldn't decide what to wear. My wardrobe's sort of bursting; yet that still happened. I hate it! So I thought maybe I could use a little shopping.

But what the heck! I walked the whole shopping centre and I still couldn't find one piece of fabric, ANY TYPE AT ALL, that could render me speechless. Back in the days, I could find countless outfits but no money to fund them; now I can't find anything at all.

After that two rounds of aimlessly weaving in and out of stores performing touch and go-s, we left the shopping centre. I told the boy, "damnnn, I forgot how to shop."

This moment, I have been dreading the coming of this moment. And I think this happens to most Singaporean girls. Settling into the comfort of comformity. Cause looking back at that 'shopping trip', I did chanced upon a few articles that I would have bought without blinking last time, but now I just let it go. Its as though I'd rather buy something that everyone's wearing now over something that I like/more 'me'.

Its so sad. I feel sad.

What happened to me? I'm morphing into one of those street cats. All looking like the other. And lazy at that.

:(

Which brings me back to how I'm browsing http://www.lookbook.nu/ and http://www.thesartorialist.blogspot.com/ instead of doing my work. :x

I shall be hardworking and not lazy from now onwards. I wanna feel confident again! >:(

Time to:

1. Not eat so much; office job has made me chubbier! :(:(:(
2. Invest in a fitted blazer; Zara, Topshop, anywhere else?
3. Invest in shoes; how can I not realise this earlier, no more "slippers with anything"

• Black wedges
• Nude pump

Ehh, I'll add in more when I think of them :x

NOW ON TO WORK! :D

FUCKERS OF THE WORLD ALL GO AND DIE. DIE MOTHERFUCKERS I REALLY HOPE YOU DIE

SERIOUSLY YOU KNOW, THIS MOTHERFUCKER AH. I REALLY REALLY HOPE, FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART, THAT YOU'LL DIE A SLOW AND EXCRUCIATINGLY SLOW DEATH. I AM DOING YOU A FAVOUR, BY APPEALING FOR YOU. YOU DON'T SHOW ME ATTITUDE. DON'T TELL ME THIS CHEAT MONEY THERE CHEAT MONEY. YOU TELL ME FOR WHAT FUCK. I AM WORKING FOR THE COMPANY. I AM NOT THE COMPANY. SO DON'T TELL ME. IF YOU REALLY KNOW LHL THEN ASK HIM TO PAY YOUR O.M. FOR YOU. DON'T APPEAL LA CCB. HATE THIS KIND OF PEOPLE. NEED PEOPLE HELP STILL WANNA SHOW ATTITUDE. IN THE FIRST PLACE I CAN JUST KEEP REJECTING YOU. YOU WANNA COME HERE AND LOOK FOR ME ALSO HARD. FUCKER. SOMEMORE SAY I ANYHOW SAY YOU THREATEN ME. HELLO YOU WANNA HOLD PRESS CONFERENCE IF WE DON'T APPROVE YOUR CASE THATS NOT THREATENING MEH? FUCK YOUR LAN YOU CCB. SERIOUSLY. SO WHAT IF YOU WERE A MILLIONAIRE BEFORE. KEYWORD: WERE. YOU WERE. NOW NOT. NOW YOU NEED OUR HELP. SAY I SUCK YOUR BLOOD BY ASKING FOR MORE DOCUMENTS. OK LOR. WHATEVER CRAP DOCUMENT YOU SEND ME I JUST USE. YOUR CASE NOT SOLID ENOUGH TO PROVE KENA REJECTED ALSO YOUR LOSS. YOU HAVE TO PAY, NOT ME. SERIOUSLY. GOD, PLEASE TAKE THIS MOTHERFUCKER AWAY FROM EARTH, THE WORLD. HE DON'T EVEN BELONG TO HELL LOR. CCB. NO ONE EVER MADE ME SO PISSED OFF BEFORE SIA.

Hello hello (:

I wonder if people still read this space! Heh. But hows everyone? :D

Been really busy with workkk and work and worrrrrrkkkkk. Warao, OT till 11pm siaaa. Siao times one thousand. But good pay good bonus so me no complains! :D

AND AWESOME NINJAS. WAH WAH WAH LOVE Y'ALL DEEP DIPZXZX MUACK! <3

and you. Though you won't see this, heh. <3<3

But I really miss NP. Fcking cb alot. My C02 girls. My polo teammies. Miss every single bit of it. ): Le sigh.

Oh myyy, I haven't blogged here in eons! Too busy with work and whatnots! I'm happy! Heh, and blogging more frequently at another platform but hush hush for now :D



HAHAHAHHAAH ISN'T THIS JUST HILARIOUS! :D I was damn bored during my last day of work at B&J I think! I miss my ice creams and the slack ttm work there!!! I miss my SORBET SPLASHHHH! ):

Ok, got to go to bed HAHAHAHAHA DAMN LAZY TO BLOG OKTHANKSBAI.

She's just damn fcking pretty. Beautiful. Aesthetically stunning. Omgosh. Go google Effy Stonem images. SIGH. Sucks to look like shit.

Just bought brown contacts. Do I look weird in them? Cause usually I use green blue or grey. Hardly brown cause I look abit zombie-ish in them! >:

And I realised I haven't blogged in ages! Nothing interesting in my life. AHHHH, but on another note, I AM GOING 'HOME' FOR TWO CONSECUTIVE WEEKS! :D:D:D Will update agai soon!