OMG, I'm starting to feel excited. I'm gonna apply to be an intern at _____ or ______. Not gonna say where here cause if I don't get it I'm gonna be so depressed cause its like my dream job kinda thing and I will totally just die of depression!))): We'll see we'll see (: Thanks Macy Love you bigtime <3> AHHH EXCITING PART 2: I'm partying next Friday to celebrate me turning Nine-fcking-teen! The last year as a teenager! I swear All Hell Break Loose in year 2010 as a very very extremely old teenager(: I'm gonna do things purely cause I wanna do them and not because some fcker tells me it is the right thing to do :D Weeee cheers to the life I want! :D:D:D

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Eh heh heh, just in case there are some nice kind souls out there who want to buy me presents I'll love you many many :D Like how I'd loveeee to have whut, eyelash extensions fund, that grey Topshop blazer, a new bag of which the design I haven't thought of but I heard KateSpade has awesome designs :D HAHAHA, aiya forget it everything I want is so expensive )))))))): Saddddd. OH GREY CONTACTS! Or maybe tattoo fund? :D Ok thnks bai.

Its 3:05 in the morning and I'm still up doing my fucking assignments. And with a hellload of stuff on my mind. Sometimes you think that when you are so up to your neck with commitments you're sure the big guy up there won't give you anymore shit to deal with but then He just proves you wrong but giving you situations that you just got to deal with them or at least clog your mind with. Assignments are aplenty this semester that I don't think I can pause to breathe after one cluster is gone because once I inhale, I'm up to my nose in them. Despite the fact that schoolwork is pretty stressful, I made the decision to stay on and play with the team what is left of it. It was like a, 'damned if I do, damned if I don't' kind of situation. You have to do something about the situation but if you do, it won't be a very pretty sight. Well but it wasn't exactly a pretty sight to begin with anyways. \: So after you do something to the lose-lose situation, you feel so utterly upset that things had to go the way that it did but you just gotta suck it up. Cause life is, well, like that? I mean, come on, I should know. I, the very least, seriously should know how it feels. I just don't know what to do about it anymore. It has been dragging and dragging and when is it coming to an end? So so tired about the whole thing. There isn't any use in hiding your emotions cause nobody's gonna make your life better if they can't seem to understand how you feel and what you want. You have to let us know, cause we are afterall a team. -sighs. Really don't know how else to continue this topic anymore.

GWC B&J has a new manager in charge, now I gotta work more too lest I lose my jobbb\:

And lately I have been drinking alot of coffee. Maybe a little too much. So much that I went ahead and got a Starbucks tumbler. Good shit, I'm bringing coffee to school everyday now. But there's only so much that coffee can do. Can it keep me awake to make all the right decisions that probably do as little hurt/harm to the people around me? \: Sigh. Only 18 and life's already fulloshit.

PS - Being deprived of sleep sure makes me cynical hur? Sorry if this post doesn't make much sense. I am so not getting sleep tonight and I have lessons at 9 later and work after my lessons. Awesome much? Feel so much like crying now. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I feel sorry for you that all the decisions you make, seem to be out of some other people's head. Is your brain seriously that puny that you have to let other people's opinions affect your judgement? Who cares what other people think as long as you yourself know what you want? In the end when you heed their advice and down the road you realise that that's not exactly what you want, who are you gonna pin the blame onto? No one else but yourself, cause you're so fucking dense. People who don't use their brains should seriously perish in hell. Go and fucking die fucker. Sheesh.

So full of fatigue these days. Can't seem to push my stamina to the limit to do my assignments till late): 3 assignments which I've yet to complete, I need helppp!): Tomorrow Imma meet BFF to complete them at Starbucks after IEP(: IMY BFF!!! <3

Today was rather horrid. Boarded the bus at around 1pm, supposed to reach CoronationPlaza latest by 2pm so that I could chill at Starbucks and get some work done but NOOO, rain had to start pouring and stuff. I FCKING SWEAR I TOOK ALMOST HALF AN HOUR TO GET FROM NANYANG GIRLS' TO NATIONAL JC AND THEY ARE FCKING NEXT TO EACH OTHER. It was that bad\: So I was feeling cold and hungry and cursing and swearing with no idea what happened. Gahh. When I finally reached Coronation's Starbucks I immediately ordered the venti PeppermintMocha. BIGASS CUPPA! :D Shiokkkk ttm! (:

Anyways, really glad with my Napfa results(: NP Canoeists FTW! <3

Can anyone spell 'trudat'? -sighs. Sidenote, am gonna run in school tmr alone before going to do IEP at KAP! So chiong hurhur? Only doing that because next week's Napfa. Argh.

Random webcam picca with my classmate! :D LOL, another sidenote Imma get myself real geeky specs soon, together with the degree lens and all that thingmajiggys((: ANYWAYS IM SO SAD NOW CAUSE MY ITCHY FINGERS WENT TO TAKE OUT MY TRAGUS STUD AND NOW IT CANT FUCKING GO INNNN! ))))))))))))))))): MAJOR SADZXZX! KILL ME NAOZXZX!

Hola, back here for some Midweek updates. As per usual, past few days have been one helluva rollercoaster. Won't dwell too much on them details cause they are some what personal. Guess I got to DEAL WITH IT. Sigh.

Lighting at B&J GWC is good, for camwhoring! (: HAHHAA.

So anyways, I finally got my tragus pierced and it was FCKING PAIN LA JOLYN NG! Bluff me only HAHAA! Officially the most painful piercing I had. But since I already had that done, HMM HELL BRING ON THAT TATTOO I SAY :D

Once again, as of always, I also got my nails done. :D I'm so sad. Sad person, so insecure about myself I gotta keep finding ways to seem more decent. ))): FML.

And so enough about my life stories in chapters and subheadings, now on to the 2 assignments! Toodles for now.

Harrow. -sighs. ): So much to say, but no longer able to. Go watch HIMYM Season 4 Episode 6, much food for thought.

So so tired, still ): This week has been power packed! Filled to my neck with assignments, cramming in work and meeting friends. Enjoying all the ice cream and meeting friends but definitely not the assignments part! Too darn stressed! Training today, thankfully the sun ain't that hot else I'll be melting into the pool! Nah just kidding, probably turn blacker though -.-

I chose my current blogsong for a reason yeah?