Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
Do you realize this is something that is constantly happening? ): Why? During the start of the relationship, they can promise anything. Promises to give, promises to accept, promises to always be there. And we, always so stupid and naive. Always believing. And it always turns out the same. We are always left right at the same spot, looking back and wondering just what happened. The same person, but just not so similar to the one from the past anymore. And you would give anything to have it back, you know its highly not possible, but you still hope something perhaps a miracle could happen and things would go back to how they used to be. But most of the time, miracles just don't happen. Why? Why make promises you can't keep? And after breaking those promises, you go on to others and make the same promises, what's the use? You're still going to be breaking them in the end. Sigh. Now you know why I'm so cynical and adamant that that concept of Love just don't tally with reality. Because it just, doesn't. And we have all these living proof around us to constantly remind us. Don't fall back into that shithole, Quek. Don't."
Reading back, maybe they didn't change. Maybe they were the ones who were constant. Maybe I was the one who changed. Oh foolish me.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Ohmygosh, I've become such a brand whore. :( Now Agnes b, Longchamp and Kate Spade is not enough! :( I'm craving some Chanel Gucci Prada and Salvatore Ferragamo! And not forgetting my Balenciaga. /drools.
Pretty PRETTY OMFG PRETTY BAGS! :D
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
I still don't know what exactly 'we' are, but I know for sure now that what 'we' have, is real. (: Its gonna be an awesome journey. <3
Besides that, I think my life has reached stagnancy. Is that even a word? Like every single day, routine work. Crazy amount of workload. But super nice colleagues who dote on me :D But wahhhh, I totally don't envision myself slogging my whole life away there. :( I want something new, something refreshing, something more to what I like! But life's never fair isn't it? You can't have everything you like. Booooooo.
Sorry Alvin I blogged very little, its 2:07am and this is a shoutout to youuu! :D Brain barely functioning already.
And with that GOODNIGHT/MORNING WORLD!
Monday, September 13, 2010
Fashion: My 2 cents
Took a day off work today because I was just too tired from all the late nights doing nothing constructive. And besides, I brought work home so I thought 'why not just stay home and do them?'
Before I start, I must bring up the events of last Saturday. Was at Far East with the boy. Just got my pay, and recently I just couldn't decide what to wear. My wardrobe's sort of bursting; yet that still happened. I hate it! So I thought maybe I could use a little shopping.
But what the heck! I walked the whole shopping centre and I still couldn't find one piece of fabric, ANY TYPE AT ALL, that could render me speechless. Back in the days, I could find countless outfits but no money to fund them; now I can't find anything at all.
After that two rounds of aimlessly weaving in and out of stores performing touch and go-s, we left the shopping centre. I told the boy, "damnnn, I forgot how to shop."
This moment, I have been dreading the coming of this moment. And I think this happens to most Singaporean girls. Settling into the comfort of comformity. Cause looking back at that 'shopping trip', I did chanced upon a few articles that I would have bought without blinking last time, but now I just let it go. Its as though I'd rather buy something that everyone's wearing now over something that I like/more 'me'.
Its so sad. I feel sad.
What happened to me? I'm morphing into one of those street cats. All looking like the other. And lazy at that.
:(
Which brings me back to how I'm browsing http://www.lookbook.nu/ and http://www.thesartorialist.blogspot.com/ instead of doing my work. :x
I shall be hardworking and not lazy from now onwards. I wanna feel confident again! >:(
Time to:
- Not eat so much; office job has made me chubbier! :(:(:(
- Invest in a fitted blazer; Zara, Topshop, anywhere else?
- Invest in shoes; how can I not realise this earlier, no more "slippers with anything"
- Black wedges
- Nude pump
Ehh, I'll add in more when I think of them :x
NOW ON TO WORK! :D
Sunday, September 12, 2010
FUCKERS OF THE WORLD ALL GO AND DIE. DIE MOTHERFUCKERS I REALLY HOPE YOU DIE
Saturday, August 28, 2010
I wonder if people still read this space! Heh. But hows everyone? :D
Been really busy with workkk and work and worrrrrrkkkkk. Warao, OT till 11pm siaaa. Siao times one thousand. But good pay good bonus so me no complains! :D
AND AWESOME NINJAS. WAH WAH WAH LOVE Y'ALL DEEP DIPZXZX MUACK! <3
and you. Though you won't see this, heh. <3<3
But I really miss NP. Fcking cb alot. My C02 girls. My polo teammies. Miss every single bit of it. ): Le sigh.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Oh myyy, I haven't blogged here in eons! Too busy with work and whatnots! I'm happy! Heh, and blogging more frequently at another platform but hush hush for now :D
HAHAHAHHAAH ISN'T THIS JUST HILARIOUS! :D I was damn bored during my last day of work at B&J I think! I miss my ice creams and the slack ttm work there!!! I miss my SORBET SPLASHHHH! ):
Ok, got to go to bed HAHAHAHAHA DAMN LAZY TO BLOG OKTHANKSBAI.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Sigh sigh sigh sigh. As the day approaches, I feel more and more like some fcking lost sheep. I don't know what to do where to go from here on. Applied for the CPF job and went for interview but still not very optimistic thanks to one totally fail-answer to one of their questions and my age. Like everyone there seems so fcking old and I'm like 19goingon20? I'm like such a greenhorn! >: Sigh. How now?
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
And with that, yes, I'm back to just plain ol' B&J. Applied for more jobs, such as CPF Building with AWESOME PAY but obviously not the field that I want. BUT STILL, HOW CAN ANYONE(ESPECIALLY A DIPLOMA GRADUATE LIKE ME) REFUSE 1.8K A MONTH WITH CPF? :D Let's just see where that goes. But major stupidity on my part, I applied for this media shit and totally forgot about it and didn't check my professional email thinking the whole time that I'm such a loser who will never be able to break into the industry of my dreams and today when I checked my email I realised they replied me and granted me an interview on the 16TH WHICH IS TMD 6 DAYS AGO! FML! >: So I sent them a deeply apologetic email and hope they'd give me a chance. PRAY FOR ME!
And with Haji now a sorry part of my past, I've been attending trainings. Competition is just a few days away its scary. Actually, not really. Just a tad saddening 'cause after all it will be my last. Weirdly while I've been waiting my whole Polytechnic life for this chapter to close but now that it is the last one, I feel apprehensive. Looking ahead, I could have my dream nails, complexion and skinny frame back but I would miss all the laughter tears and joy. If only I could have it all. >:
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
- had skinnier arms
- had skinnier legs
- was taller
- didn't have fucked up complexion
- wasn't so fucking tanned to the extent it looks black
- had slimmer fingers
- had slimmer feet
- had bigger eyes
- nicer hair
- had abs
- was rich
- could do whatever I want without anyone judging me, stopping me
- could tell you everything but I don't dare to and its fucking killing me
Monday, February 22, 2010
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance,
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)
Friday, February 19, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Oh yes, know what's a douche? YOU're a douche. Fcktard.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
I can't believe I am at this stage right now. This overwhelming feeling that just won't go away. It was so hard to finally get over someone and now it starts all over again. Just a whole new person thats all. Fuck it. Seriously I don't wanna go back to the same shithole but I'm like quarter way there already. AHHH OMG. :<
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Now I'm left with 2 weeks of polytechnic life. Hmmm, such a bittersweet affair. One moment you can't wait for it to come because FINALLY you can have a break from the insane assignments but then again, once you're out its like, full of uncertainty for the future. Gahh. So where do I go from there? Hahaha. Nevertheless, I'm still gonna try for my NTU(: and hopefully in between all that, I'll find my way :D Here's wishing everyone AN AWESOME SUNDAY <3
Friday, January 15, 2010
And so, we finally secured a Gold in NTU 3v3. May be a minor competition but it shows us we do have what it takes :D Go go GO Team Devlin! :D SPCPOC, we will be able to show everyone else!! :D
Ok, not much to update. Gotta go get ready forrr, IDK WHAT HAHAHA! OK bai.